Weight Watchers

Someone who may or may not write this blog may or may not have started weight watchers today.
This same someone may or may not feel like a huge dork for joining weight watchers--but by god, those last 10ish pounds sure aren't movin'. So here's my attempt at reclaiming my bod (allegedly).

Breastfeeding Vs. Me: Round II

Alright-- so recently my milk has just about dried up. Yes, I'm a dried up old hag, officially. I tried to pump, tried to get Mirabel to suckle/feed anyway to stimulate production, and was wildly unsuccessful in both.
I just spent a few weeks sulking, but now I'm up for round two.
Breastfeeding now has the cards stacked against me, since now I'll be attempting to 're-lactate.' Clearly, M. will never be an exclusively breastfed baby, but I'm hoping I can at least get her some of that magical elixir out of these teets.
I met with a lovely lactation consultant at The Birth Center and here's the plan she worked up for me:

• take domperidone
• take fenugreek
• drink H20 'till I swim
• Pump 6-8x/day (HOLY SHIT)
• Look at pics of M. while pumping to stimulate loving-mama feelings

Pump 6-8x/day!? This is going to be horrible. That, by the way, includes to mid-night feedings.
Well, I'm going to start sometime next week...I'll let you know how it goes....

Not a Fan of Car Rides

mini meditation

Goodnight!

You Can(not) Have it All

"Work, Marriage, Kids...at any given point, you can only give your all to two"

This is what crystalgeek78 said in the comments of today's Motherlode post "Preparing to be torn."
Some serious ink has been spilled over this topic, and I have to say, I'm struggling with this right now. How many ways can space and time be folded so that you can fulfill all of your obligations?
Do I need to (wo)man up and make it work? If I prioritize and organize correctly, can't I find a way for my will?
Or
Is it unrealistic to push myself in that way? Should I stop pressuring myself and give myself some room to suck in one arena to the benefit of another?